QUEEN OF HER OWN HEART

Invocations for Self Renewal

Dear Reader,

This collection, Queen of Her Own Heart, has to do with making a conscious choice about how you are going to show up in the world, and who you are going to become.

When we just allow the world to happen to us, we can almost experience it as an assault or onslaught, things just coming towards us of which we have no choice or control. In some cases that is so, but in others it is not. We get to be a part of what happens, and the more we practice it, the more potential we have for truly collaborating with our lives in a conscious manner.

When we decide to be at cause for our life, our many particles and how we are made up begins to change, and with that change we see what we weren't seeing before, like opportunities or relationships that reveal themselves based on how we are vibrating.

To CHOOSE to be in love with the day is indeed a choice, and one that will change our lives from the inside out. And besides, it is so much more delicious that way.

I hope you enjoy the journey here and maybe you will discover something new about the queen of your own heart and what she wants to speak to you ...

Signed in the crystals from the crown of the queen,

Shiloh Sophia

After 1000 Broken Vows

After 1000 broken vows
we will rise again. I promise.
Surrendering to the mystery
of knowing and not knowing,
we finally understand
that we will not do everything
we say we will.
This confession
should feel like a relief.
We have transcended getting it right,
when we finally get it that we won't.
We can let ourselves off
our own meat hooks
when we finally know
integrity comes and goes.
Perfection is over-rated.
One fine day,
in the middle of the night,
our truths lined up single file
and went out for a midnight spree
and then didn't come home
and we woke up truth-less.
Then it is time to begin again.
Better that the heart
be broken 1000 times
than never open at all.
My job is to wipe the fevered brow
of our restless creative musings,
not demolish the hospitals
that house our sicknesses.
Though I do dream of revolution for breakfast.

This is my truth:
I have no idea what is going on.
I only know that we must create
and keep on creating no matter what.
Before the mending with red thread,
first, the breaking open.
Vow 1001 ...
I have been waiting for you.

~ Self–Forgiveness ~

Where is self-forgiveness needed by you, for you?

We are often our own worst captor, holding ourselves caged, even when we don't need to. We set expectations for ourselves that we wouldn't expect others to keep and yet we set ourselves up to fail, based on our invented criteria. When we release our own cages, there is freedom available. Are you interested in experiencing more freedom? Imagine the cage door opening ... creaking on the hinges and releasing. What is held inside? What did you see?

Interestingly enough, so much of living in the spaciousness of forgiveness is about choosing to allow it in, the belief that there is love available and that you can be a partaker in this love. When we move in the space of being forgiven instead of being wrong, the way we move in the world is expanded.

Let us begin with this simple clear place of inviting forgiveness. Imagine what your vow 1001 would be. What would become available to you if you released yourself? What vow? See if you can see it written in the sky, the stars, the clouds....

Festival of the Open Heart

Look, there is a festival happening;
we are gathering in the streets
to be in the space of what moves us.

Stop trying to save yourself;
choose to enter into the pleasure
and chaos of being so very alive.

I know you don't feel like it;
bones, head and heart complain
and strain against the idea of this joy.

I am talking to myself here,
as artists and poets often do;
I am also talking to you.

Would we rather stay locked up
in the story of our own making
where we are always right and safe?

I don't know about you
but I am putting on my red dress,
yes, right now, and the golden boots.

I am closing the eyes that fear being seen
and opening the eyes that LOVE to be seen
while dancing in the streets of Love.

The drum that heralds the start of the festival
begins to beat – can you hear it?
Match your heart to that pace!

There are many things that would take us
away from what we love and dream of,
too busy to dance, sing, chant, pray and play.

I am not saying life isn't hard. I know it is.
I just want to choose to walk a sacred path,
instead of using all my energy in survival.

We are Divine Love on earth
and when we dance in this way
we dance with the Beloved in our arms.

To begin, we must open our arms wide enough
to let something or someone in;
let us make our way into the LOVE zone.

I will be at the festival if you want to find me.
What's that you say? Oh good. You are coming?
Because of you, this is going to be a great time!

When we are old, we won't say we regretted this.
We will say – remember the festival?
The one that changed everything?

This is, of course, the festival of the open heart.
There is a chance to join it every single day,
if we choose to take part.

I cannot think of any place I would rather be
than here with you,
moving together at the pace of beauty.

~ Living from Yes ~

How have you been withholding yourself from what you want?

Without actually meaning to, many of us have been holding ourselves back from what we really want. Whether that is from self judgment or fear, the result is we don't experience enough "Yes's" in our body and soul. We sit the dance out; we don't throw our hat into the ring; we give the seat to someone else; we just let go instead of letting ourselves have more of what would bring us delight. We let desire go dormant.

Living from the "Yes" place begins with choosing to participate, which means moving through the fear while the fear is still present. This is easier said than done; otherwise, we would have done it, right? We are afraid we will feel like a fool. Well,...