Anthem of Sting and Ember

Him

He made summer in to song
He put laughter in my life
He led me from my silent nights
And yet the sun has set again
The world, I know must always turn
Leaves of autumn fall once more
If only time was circular


Gone

Where is my love?
Where is my loss?
The mirror I give a careless glance reflects nothing

Where is my joy?
What is my name?
When I stand in the sun, where's my shadow?

Where is my fear?
Where is my hate?
The eyes gazing through me seem luminous

Where is my sorrow?
Where is my song?
Though I walk through the waters they remain still

Where is my laughter?
Where is my life?
When I scream in the night, where's the sound?

The music in my words is gone
The sparkle in my eyes once strong
Has been blown out as if a candle
But even on this I'd've gained handle
If you too hadn't disappeared
With all of my mind memory and tears

You my friend my dear one my only
In the end you glared at me stonely
And that last look to me revealed
All the thoughts you'd ever congealed
You didn't care at all about me
I was an object to observe and see
You found me amusing, that's why you stayed
And in your death you needed my aid
That is when you truly ceased
Not when you fell to the ground beneath
Not when that thing called a body died
Not as it lay crumpled on its side
Not as I wiped the blood off my face
Not as I dragged it up to the dais
I was still following your careful instruction
I gave the body your requested destruction
The fire burned hard, deep, and strong
It wasn't surprising it took me along


Emptiness

Through long live night I watched
While watched back I silently suffered
Staring at opaque life, wondering, pondering
If possibly I exist somehow beneath the words
Or around them, rather than within
Images with immense illumination surround
But I am not there, or anywhere
My presence is not its self, only emptiness
A dead star, absorbing all but full of nothing
A substance of nonsubstance beyond reach
A gaping hole in the fabric of matters
Devoid of its own self and that which we call space
So I am that which I am not
Perhaps a test on this plane
But in the very depth of it, only emptiness


Gone (continued)

Now I am nothing neither dead nor alive
I am something only you would contrive

Of course you brought me too
I always went with you
Death when we were so entwined
Resulted in this paradigm

Dark insanity
Is all that is left to me
Velvet never ending night
Eternally holds on tight

Touch me and I cannot feel
If this is sickness, let me heal
Existence devoid of all
Please be a dream withal

Yet some part of me is here
'Cause I sense that life is near
A shard of me must be alive
A single piece must have survived

Maybe one day the wind will blow
And make this tiny ember grow
But then my only, my dear one, my friend
I would wonder why did you end?

Where is your laughter?
Where is your frown?
Why is your bed made the way you never left it?

Where is your guidance?
Where is your face?
Only in the pictures packed away

Where is your dancing?
Where is your dawn?
I will miss the love that you never felt

Where is your singing?
Where is your soul?
Did you have one in the first place?

Where is your mischief?
Where are your plans?

Despite what you did
Had I not had you at all
I would have been dead long ago


Mindless Inquisition

I look
And all the colors
Begin to fall
Around me softly

It seems
That life is
Slowly, surely
Melting into rain

I watch
The blood of
Today and tomorrow
Pooling in the stones

Is it
Sad or beautiful
The death
Of all these things

Why do
All the people
From this
Seek to gain an answer

Why are
There minds
Hungry
For what they cannot find

They'll keep
Plowing onward
Relentless
Till they're dying

Throwing
Life away
To find the
Meaning of it

Mindless inquisition


Once Upon December

My one, my only
Careless beside me
Beautiful were you
If you'd been true

Oh so many people died
And yet I never cried
Didn't shed a single tear
All because of you my dear

Do you know what you did that day?
Threw my childhood away
Took my only firm foundation
Welcomed death as a vacation

I hid behind the door
You looked and I was it once more
So innocent
That's my lament

My one my only
Where did you hide from me?
That mind I know was yours?
That chamber of horrors?

My one my only
Wretched beside me
All alone with out a care
All alone though I was there

Serpent underneath
The flower that you seemed

Thoughtlessly terrible
Mindlessly evil

So psychotic
So hypnotic

My one, my only
Where did you hide from me?
That mind I know was yours?
That chamber of horrors?

My one my only
Wretched beside me
All alone with out a care
All alone though I was there


Mindless Inquisition (continued)

Is there
Meaning in a
Foot print on the sand
That washed away?

As dust
We are no
Different
Vanishing into night

Yet still
They keep on climbing
Keep on trying
To fill the void

Is
Everything we do
A means to
Lie about the question?

I must
Admit that this
Is something
I don't know

Mindless Inquisition


Patch Work Quilt

Stranger, stranger by my side
From you I cannot hide
In my eyes that's your reflection
Those twisted thoughts your resurrection

Lurking in a darkened truth
You watched quiet through my youth
Till the day when awoken
Then my solitude was broken

In nights where foot steps echo in my mind I cannot
breathe
Stranger restless stranger can't you wander off and
leave?

Ebony insanity
My companion this deep canyon
In reality

Do I know you better than I'd ever care to say?
Are you staring at me in the mirror every day?

Inside the web you've sown
While stronger you have grown
Lost in incubus unfolding
Is there a shred of truth upholding?

I cry out so desperately
Yet only you answer me
So much havoc inside one head
Life has become different shades of red

Ebony insanity
My companion this deep canyon
In reality


Song of Sadness

A million little things
Use to make my spirit sing
But now in this silent night
There are dreams but there is no light
Time and time again
I wish this shadow life would end
Why does every mind
Long for something it can't find?
Is there a question I could ask?
To lay these things to rest at last?
Time and time again
I wish this shadow life would end


Untitled

I lived for you, my angel and demon,
Through nights blacker than sin it's self
I breathed for you, kindest and cruelest,
Though pain was almost all I knew
I laughed for you, my lovely and...