“Brilliant and painful and hilarious.” —Antonya Nelson
On October 17, 2002, David MacLean “woke up” on a train platform in India with no idea who he was or why he was there. No money. No passport. No identity.
Taken to a mental hospital by the police, MacLean then started to hallucinate so severely he had to be tied down. Soon he could remember song lyrics, but not his family, his friends, or the woman he was told he loved. All of these symptoms, it turned out, were the result of the commonly prescribed malarial medication he had been taking. Upon his return to the States, he struggled to piece together the fragments of his former life in a harrowing, absurd, and unforgettable journey back to himself.
The Answer to the Riddle Is Me, drawn from David MacLean’s award-winning This American Life essay, is a deeply felt, closely researched, and intensely personal book. It asks every reader to confront the essential questions of our age: In our geographically and chemically fluid world, what makes me who I am? And how much can be stripped away before I become someone else entirely?
Praise for The Answer to the Riddle Is Me:
A mesmerizing, unsettling memoir about the ever-echoing nature of identity written in vivid, blooming detail. Gillian Flynn, #1 New York Times best-selling author of Gone Girl
A gripping medical mystery, a heartwarming personal journey, and a chilling indictment of the commonly prescribed drug that upended MacLean s life but left his superb literary skills intact. Rebecca Skloot, #1 New York Times best-selling author of The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks
MacLean fearlessly explores his journey to the edge of madness and his subsequent return to sanity in an unsettling, sometimes riotous, memoir. Publishers Weekly
What does it mean to be the person you are? How much can be stripped away before you are no longer you? This is a fascinating book that resides in the mind as if you lived it yourself. Robert Boswell, author of Tumbledown
Thoughtful, terribly honest, often funny, and utterly unselfindulgent, this is a riveting work of narrative art. Tony Hoagland, author of What Narcissism Means to Me
A compelling personal account and a frightful caution to physicians and travelers who continue to place their faith in a very dangerous drug. Remington L. Nevin, MD, MPH, Mefloquine expert
David Stuart MacLean is a writer who can break your heart, terrify you, and make you laugh all on the same page. The Answer to the Riddle Is Me is a masterful exploration of the funhouse of identity. Mat Johnson, author of Pym