One Body: A Retrospective - Softcover

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Catherine Simpson is a novelist, journalist, poet, and short story writer based in Edinburgh. Her memoir 'When I Had a Little Sister' was published by 4th Estate in February 2019 to great acclaim, and her debut novel 'Truestory' was published in 2015. In 2013 she received a Scottish Book Trust New Writers Award for the opening chapters of 'Truestory.' Her work has been published in various anthologies and magazines, published online and broadcast on BBC Radio. Born on a Lancashire dairy farm, she is now based in Edinburgh.

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I was born at milking time on a dairy farm, which must have been a nuisance. I would learn later that nothing got in the way of milking and it was never acceptable to be a nuisance.

Nurse Steele attended my mother, who was in bed in the best sitting room; afterwards, the doctor, who had arrived in time for the birth, picked his way across the dark farmyard, through the puddles and over the cobbles, to the cowshed to inform my dad, ‘Another girl!’

It was late October back in sixty-three, and as Frankie Valli might have said, ‘Oh, What a Night’. Being farmers, they must have wanted a boy, but seeing as I weighed a decent eight pounds and had ten fingers and ten toes, they got what they were given.

My mother could not breastfeed and I refused bottled milk (another nuisance on a dairy farm), so legend has it she fed me ‘liquidised sandwiches’.

At three months, before any of my vaccinations, I got whooping cough and she sat up night after night with me in front of the kitchen range, waiting for the ‘whoop’ between the coughs, thinking I had drawn my last breath. Over the years I was told every now and then, ‘You nearly died, you did; think on.’

My mother also told me she had fallen downstairs when she was pregnant with me and remarked more than once, ‘I didn’t make such a good job of you.’

One way or another I used up a lot of my mother’s patience before I was even old enough to remember.

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I was not raised with permission to be ill – as I grew up, illness was barely tolerated.

Doctors’ surgeries were for inoculations. Hospitals were for dealing with accidents, with the occasional stitch or a plaster cast. For years our farmhouse did not contain a first-aid kit and the only medication we had was a bottle of orange-flavoured Junior Aspirin on the top shelf in the kitchen to shut us up if we felt ‘poorly’ and a tin of sticky pink Germolene for cuts and grazes.

One of my most prized possessions was a ‘nurse’s bag’ I got for my eighth birthday, which contained a pretend syringe and a hammer for ‘knocking knees’. But I knew no one who worked in the medical profession; I was more familiar with the veterinary surgeon. We often watched the vet at work on the farm, injecting animals and calving cows. We also watched the artificial inseminator, the AI, at work in his enormous rubber apron, taking a straw of bull semen and sticking his arm up to his armpit inside a cow. This was mysterious but also normal. So normal that when we played in the muddy banks of the pond, we shoved our hands in deep, brought them out with a ‘plop’ and shouted, ‘I’m the AI!’

At our village primary school, Mrs Darlington had ‘magic cream’, a cream that took away all pain, stopped all aches and cured all illness. I imagine it was Savlon, but for years I believed it said ‘magic cream’ on the tube. I longed for magic cream, but I never got any because I never had any ailments.

When one of the boys broke his leg tripping over a slab in the playground, magic cream was not applied; instead he was put at the front of the classroom with his leg propped up on a chair and a wet paper towel on top until home time.

Children who were ill were exotic. Illness made them worthy of fuss (a chair at the front, a wet paper towel). Illness made them special.

One girl in the village said she saw pink elephants dance around her bedroom walls during a fever, and I was fascinated and envious of what sounded like her own Disney film. When another girl was sent for speech therapy because she said ‘bastick’ instead of ‘basket’, I decided to develop a stutter, until I got home and my mother barked, ‘Talk properly!’

In our dressing-up box, my sisters and I had a pair of Victorian wire-framed spectacles. We took turns sitting on the wall at the front of the farmhouse, the world swimming through the lenses, waiting for the occasional car to pass by in the hope the driver would think we were intelligent and interesting enough to need glasses. In fact, I was short-sighted and did need glasses, but nobody noticed until I was eight and had a school eye test, by which time I could no longer read the blackboard.