The carriage was nearly empty. By the time the train was shuddering along the coast towards Cuanbeg, rain lashing the windows, there was only me and the girl in the navy coat left. She looked like a girl in a school story, with her neat brown plait. I'd grown out of school stories but I couldn't help wishing I had one now, instead of only a Belfast Telegraph someone had left behind. The print was so tiny that my eyes and brain hurt. I laid it down with an exaggerated sigh, and, as I'd hoped, she looked up from her own paper.

'War and flu,' I said. 'As usual. Though they say the war's going to end soon.'

She gave a tight smile and half-turned to look out the window, even though there was nothing to see but streaming rain and a moody pewter sea.

I tried again. 'And a man's died aged 108. If I lived to that age, I'd die in ... um – 2011. Doesn't that sound crazy?'

'Yes.' But she didn't say it in an inviting way and picked up her own paper again. The Irish Citizen.

I gave a squeak of recognition. 'We have that!' I said. 'At least – we used to.' Mam's friend Rose sometimes had it sent over from Belfast. But after their big fight she'd disappeared, and I hadn't seen it since. Now it looked like an old friend.

'Are you a suffragist, then?'

'Of course!' I pulled back my woollen scarf and showed her the little green, purple and white WSPU badge on the lapel of my coat. The girl gave a smile that brightened her face. She turned up her coat collar. She had exactly the same badge! Only hers was pinned back-to-front so it couldn't be seen.

'I came straight from school,' she said. 'I've got into trouble so often that I have to wear it in secret.' She unpinned and refastened it to the front of her collar.

'I'd hate that,' I said. 'I never hide my beliefs.' Then, in case she'd think I was criticising, I added: 'Of course I've left school, which makes it easier.' I tossed my bobbed hair and hoped she would think how grown-up I looked.

'Mama hates it too.' She sighed. 'Doesn't yours?'

'Some of my earliest memories are of Mam taking me to suffragette rallies. When other girls were embroidering samplers, I was stitching VOTES FOR WOMEN onto banners.' My voice caught and I looked down at my lap.

'Lucky you! I wish my mother was like that.'

I swallowed hard. If she asked any more I would have to say Mam was dead. And then I might cry, and I never cried. Not even this morning, sitting on my suitcase on the quayside, still queasy from the rough crossing from Liverpool, getting colder and colder and crosser and crosser, and maybe a tiny bit scared at being all on my own in this strange country. The crowds had thinned, and people were staring and in the end I had stood up, tilted my chin so nobody could feel sorry for me, and strolled off in the direction of the train station as if this had been my intention all along and I'd merely been sitting on my suitcase for half an hour to admire the beauty of the Belfast Quay on a damp October morning.

Surely Nancy would be at Cuanbeg station! I had sent a wire: You didn't meet boat so taking train. Arrives 1.05 p.m. Stella Graham. I had added Graham despite its costing extra, even though she would know perfectly well who I was, because I didn't want to be too friendly to someone who'd left her own niece sitting for hours on the quayside in the rain. It wasn't very aunt-like behaviour and she should know I wasn't impressed. Not that I thought of her as Aunt Nancy: I'd never met her, and I wasn't used to family. Except Mam.

I longed to keep talking to the girl but I couldn't trust myself to speak, so I pretended to read the Belfast Telegraph again, and she took the hint and went back to the Irish Citizen. She must have thought me peculiar, but at least I hadn't blubbed.

The train listed round a corner and juddered to a stop with a screech of brakes. Cuanbeg! The girl leapt to the door as if she couldn't wait to get off. 'Bye!' she said, and was swallowed by the smoke and steam. Probably she was being whisked away by loving parents, perhaps even in a motorcar, and was on her way to toasted teacakes by the fireside. (It was more like lunchtime, but travelling all night had made me lose all sense of time.) She wasn't going to an unknown cruel aunt who only wanted her to skivvy in her rotten seaside boarding house. Probably I wouldn't meet her again, even in a small town. If her mam didn't like suffragists, she wouldn't approve of me.

My suitcase seemed to have got heavier on the journey, and I had to buckle the strap tighter round it because it had been threatening to burst all the way from Manchester. I didn't trust it not to let me down at this final stage. By the time I'd dragged it from the luggage rack and off the train the steam and smoke had cleared and the platform was empty of aunts or any other human life. The wind whipped up my coat and I jammed my woollen beret down firmer. Even though there was nobody in sight I tried to look as if I wasn't worried, but inside fear bubbled. What if Aunt Nancy never turns up? And I'm stranded in this place for ever, all alone? What can have happened to prevent her meeting me?

The most likely explanation was –

The bubble of fear swelled into a balloon. No! Not again. And yet, why not? It was happening all over the country – schools closed, unburied bodies piled high, people dropping dead in the streets ...

I decided the balloonish feeling was hunger. Things wouldn't be solved by a bun and a cup of tea but they would be improved. The station buffet was tiny, and I had to ask three times before the woman understood my accent, but there was a tiny fire, and soon I was sitting at a scuffed wooden table with my suitcase at my feet and a thick white china mug warming my hands.

If Aunt Nancy had died, it would be terrible. And extremely inconvenient when she was my only living relative. But I'd never met her, so it couldn't be a personal sorrow. And perhaps she would have left me something in her will, and I could use it to make my way in life. I wasn't sure what my way in life would be, but it had to be better than slaving away in a seaside boarding house. Cliffside House was probably just a draughtier version of 17 Eupatoria Street, where Mam and I had lived in Manchester.

I felt forsaken, but noble and determined, a cross between Anne of Green Gables and Joan of Arc.

I didn't rush my bun. I still hoped that at any minute the door might fly open and a kind, smiling aunt rush in, full of apologies and welcome, and I wouldn't have to make my way all alone just yet. But the door stayed shut, and the waitress wiped the counter and sniffed, and my tea was finished and I hadn't enough money for another.

So there was nothing to do but lift up my suitcase and my chin and ask the waitress, 'Do you know Cliffside House?'

'Aye,' she said, wiping and sniffing.

Hope flickered. She didn't say, Are you here for the funeral? Wasn't it a tragedy? Then again, Aunt Nancy might have died that very morning.

'Could you tell me how to get there?'

She frowned at my suitcase. 'It's a fair way.'

'I've come all the way from Manchester on my own.' I couldn't keep the pride out of my voice, but she didn't look as impressed as she should have done, though she looked at me carefully as if trying to place me.

'Follow the coast to the end of the harbour, and then take Cliff Road – on your right. Keep going uphill. You'll see a ruined cottage at a crossroads. Take...