The name on his birth certificate doesn't matter. You wouldn't recognize it if you heard it. When he grew up he used many different names. But all through his life he was called the Kid.

He was his parents' first-born, and they referred to him as "the Kid" right from the start. So all their relatives started calling him the same thing. As he grew up, it was how he thought of himself, whenever he did. He had a younger sister, but she was called Celeste and he was still the Kid.

Celeste never seemed to have a problem with anything. The Kid just couldn't seem to get anything right; he always had to know why things were as they were. His parents were second-generation Mexican-American, and they didn't speak Spanish, though they had the accent. They spoke the slang of the barrio they lived in. But when their son spoke the same way, they would pretend not to understand.

"What does 'ain't' mean?" his mother would ask him.

"You know what it means" the four-year-old would say.

"No, I don't," his mother would tell him.

"Yes, you do. You say it."

"It doesn't matter if I say it or not. You don't say it. The word is 'isn't.'"

The Kid would ask her why she and his father used the word if it wasn't proper. She never answered.

At age four, the Kid had a fine vocabulary of swear words. Anytime he swore, his mother would yell, "Where did you hear language like that?" He had learned by then that it was useless to answer, "From you and Daddy."

On his first day at school, the Kid was terrified. So was his mother. She was sure he would become hysterical when she left him there. Some of the other kids did. When their mothers left, they cried and screamed and said they wanted to go home. One little girl kept it up for so long that the teacher stomped her foot and yelled, "Go home, then!"

During it all, the Kid never made a sound. He didn't cry and he didn't speak. He just sat there and watched what was going on. It wasn't that he was happy — he was afraid of the teacher and the other kids, but he was too frightened to say anything. He wanted to go home, but he knew he couldn't go home and so there was no point in crying, which would just get him in trouble. He sat quietly. This is something he would do in similar situations all through his life.

His first few days at school were all the same. But things changed for him the day the teacher started teaching the class how to read. She drew the letter a on the board and told the class, "This is aaaahh." The Kid was fascinated. He couldn't believe it was that easy to put words onto paper, like talking to somebody. If he could read, then people he had never met could talk to him. It wasn't long before he could read easily. While the other kids were moving their lips as they read Dick and Jane, the Kid was reading novels and comic books.

He soon got tired of those. He didn't have much romance in him. He didn't want to read stories that somebody had made up, and he couldn't understand why other people did. He wanted to read about things that had happened. He loved newspapers, even though he didn't understand many of the stories. At least they had happened, and there were photos of the people they had happened to. As the Kid got older, he would scavenge in used bookstores, looking for history books. By the age of fifteen, he would own more than a hundred of them. As he started to understand the stories in the newspapers, he thought he might work for a newspaper someday, taking the photos or telling the stories.

It would never happen. The Kid wasn't a good student, not even in English. He didn't like to read the novels and plays he was supposed to read for class. They weren't true, and, even if they had been true, they had nothing to do with him. They were always about white people, and the characters usually had money. There were no books or plays about someone's mother crying because there was no money and her husband was drunk and hitting her, nothing about a brother or cousin dying of AIDS while in prison. There wasn't much of that in the newspapers either, but there was some. And so the Kid just skimmed the books or didn't read them at all. He averaged a C in English. He did better in history, scoring As and Bs. He had to learn not to argue with the teacher. He had read many history books that weren't on the syllabus, and he knew that some things the teacher said weren't true. But arguing got him nowhere, so he learned to pretend to believe the teacher, and he did quite well.

But that was as well as he did. Math bored him, and so did every other class. He never got passing grades in anything but English and history. More than anything, the Kid hated sports. He was small and frail-looking, so nobody took him seriously as an athlete, which suited him. He'd just try to keep out of the other players' way until the game was over. The Kid's best friend when he was twelve was a boy named Rodrigo. He was very fat. The two of them would hang out on the fringes of a game, talking to each other while trying to seem at least semi-involved in the competition.

One time, the class was playing basketball. One of the players was a big white boy named Gordon Ritchie. At twelve, he was as big as some of the teachers. He was popular and friendly, but for some reason he didn't like the Kid.

During the game, the Kid and Rodrigo were going through the motions, keeping a conversation going as they slacked. Gordon walked up to them. Ignoring Rodrigo, he told the Kid, "You better start playing. Or I'll get you later."

The Kid didn't say anything. He was timid about fighting, and Gordon weighed more than twice as much as he did. The Kid just nodded and moved away, but he didn't make any effort to get involved in the game.

Afterwards, the Kid was sitting on a bench in the locker room, tying his shoelaces. Gordon came in. Without saying anything, he punched the Kid in the face. "Do what I tell you in future," he said, then walked out.

The Kid lay on the bench, holding his face, bleeding from both nostrils. Some of the other guys felt sorry for him, and some of them laughed at him. Rodrigo got him some toilet paper and he pressed it to his nose. "You okay, man?" Rodrigo said.

"Yeah," said the Kid. His voice was shaking and it sounded like he was going to cry, but he didn't.

They had English class later that day. Gordon sat behind the Kid. As the class went on, the Kid sat at his desk with a pen in his hand, but he didn't write anything down. He just sat there with the pen in his hand.

Nobody saw what happened next, or else nobody admitted to it. A couple of people said they saw the Kid stand up, turn around quickly, and sit down again. But neither of those people was there at the time.

The teacher had turned her back to the class and was writing on the board. She heard something and looked around. Gordon Ritchie was coming towards her, reaching for her, whimpering. The Kid's pen was sticking out of Gordon's face. The Kid had stabbed him with it, stabbed him so hard that it pierced his cheek and impaled his tongue.

The teacher backed away from Gordon, trying to take in what she was seeing. Bubbles of blood were coming out of his mouth. Some of the children ran out of the room. Others screamed or cried. The Kid just sat at his desk, as though there had been no interruption to the class.

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It would often be said that the Kid could not fight without weapons, that he was a coward when you got him unarmed and one-on-one. But few people would...