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SYMPTOMS: The Language of the Soul

BALBOA PRESS

Contents

Foreword..........................................................xiIntroduction......................................................xviiChapter 1 A Gift of Transformation................................1Chapter 2 Soul Peace..............................................19Chapter 3 Spirit of Adventure.....................................50Chapter 4 The Energy Field that Surrounds One.....................81Chapter 5 Symptoms................................................134Chapter 6 Easy Protocols..........................................171Chapter 7 Free Will...............................................202Chapter 8 A Simple Connection.....................................224Appendix A Radiation Bath.........................................253Appendix B Soulful Qualities......................................254Appendix C Energy Balance Harmony.................................255Appendix D Alkaline Therapy.......................................256Appendix E Liver Support..........................................257Appendix F Gall Bladder Flush.....................................259Appendix G Liver & Gallbladder Cleanse............................261Appendix H Minerals...............................................265Appendix I Castor Oil Protocol....................................270Resources.........................................................271

Chapter One

In December 2002, after learning I had been diagnosed with terminal cancer, the journey to discover my authentic self began. At that time, I had no comprehension of the path that would lead to locating my true self.

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"People often try to hide who they truly are by trying to be normal and fit in with the crowd. To be honest with others about who you are in this world, you must first be honest with yourself." Madisyn Taylor

A diagnosis of any disease or illness can cause a person who is not living authentically to his or her true self, to become fearful. I believe that a person does not become ill or acquire a disease if he or she is living life authentically in the present.

One can ask, "How does an individual discover one's authentic self?" A fun way to start would be to have a look in one's closet and ask these questions:

• "Does this item connect with me in a positive way?"

• "Is it romantic, powerful, or relaxing?"

• "Did the price or someone else's opinion influence my decision to purchase it?"

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My first husband did not like green. At sixteen, I was naive enough to agree to not wear green during the eight years we spent together. I like green in certain shades, yet chose to go against my true self to avoid conflict: Low self-worth played a factor in this decision.

This is one example of how a spouse, parent or friend can negatively influence what we wear, what we do, or what we choose, including a quality of life that has been lost as a child, thereby creating a pathway for the inability to speak-up for oneself. One cannot really love someone deeply unless we trust that person and more specifically, trust oneself. To learn to love self first is being true to one's authentic self. Trust is heart felt and connected to chakra energy, green reflects the heart, in context of energy life force. (See Chapter 3 for more chakra information.)

A few items of clothing may have been bought to hide one's self, for example, the clothes are too large, are lacking in color, or are old-fashioned. Remember: if old-fashioned is romantic or powerful, then it is okay! Think of how it feels when an item is worn; for example, by being my authentic self when I need to feel physically and emotionally comfortable, I wear a pair of worn turquoise shoes I love. I do not care if they match my outfit or what others might say.

The above clothes example is a way of beginning with the basics of discovering one's true self. We can then move forward to look at our profession. For example, some individuals work in a specific profession because it is generational; their parents were a doctor or lawyer and expect their chosen profession to be followed by their children, to the point in some scenarios of having a trust fund blocked if they choose otherwise. A lack of worth can also play a part in the profession that we choose, believing there are no other choices.

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When I was growing up, my father suggested I had two career choices; secretary, or mother. I believed there were other options, although they were limited at that time due to my lack of self worth and need for approval. It was not until I got the cancer at fifty-two that I began to realize life is not simply based on luck and that we have the power to guide our own destiny.

To live life authentically, I found we need to have a relationship with self. How can that be possible when we may not recognize who self is? To recognize self, it is necessary to know the difference between unconditional love and enabling behaviors.

Unconditional love is about freedom of choice without fear of punishment. It is learning and accepting that one has the same freedom of choice as others. When I can free myself from judging others or even judging myself, then I am practicing unconditional love.

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Enabling refers to a third party taking responsibility or blame for another person. This third party may try to solve another person's problems or accommodate another person's troubling conduct. Often this is done with good intentions; however, it is operating from a base of fear or insecurity. An example of this is when one sees that a friend has a problem and decides to solve the problem for them, instead of giving them knowledge to solve the problem on their own. Another example would be when one makes a call to their spouse's workplace on their behalf because he or she is having difficulty going into work that day. If the spouse is making a choice to avoid work, they need to take responsibility for that choice, and not be enabled to avoid doing so.

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At different times through the years, I have enabled a friend, sibling, child and husband without recognizing the symptoms. My diagnosis of cancer helped me realize what I had been unknowingly doing. I realize now that when we enable other people, it takes away their ability to grow their own wings and fly. Keeping another person too close does not give love in the best way; rather this behavior reduces love within oneself and limits another's ability to love self in a healthy way. Weak boundaries, low self-worth, or lack of assertiveness can be reasons why we take such steps to enable others.

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It is time to put one's self first without guilt. It is time to connect with one's Spirit and Soul, to shift the negative self-talk, and to assertively communicate thoughts and feelings to others. It is time to live life with meaning, purpose and passion, as well as to shine one's light in the world.

Affirmations are a wonderful way to develop a stronger self, once one has become aware of any negative talk that is being self projected. Seeking to look into one's own eyes in a mirror, and voice an affirmation is a connection with Soul, and it is powerful.

"When you fashion a life where the decisions you make and the actions you take are considered, deliberate and in harmony with what's important to you, you are living an authentic life." Suzanne...