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Introduction..................................................................viiiTrials........................................................................1IF............................................................................3My Son........................................................................4Searching.....................................................................5Day by Day....................................................................6Numb..........................................................................7The Pen is Mightier...........................................................8Why...........................................................................9Blessed.......................................................................10My day........................................................................11Enough........................................................................12Look What You've Done!........................................................13This Night....................................................................14My First Love.................................................................15Truth.........................................................................16Daydreaming...................................................................17Thoughts of You...............................................................19My Prayer.....................................................................20A Piece.......................................................................21For The Love of a Child.......................................................22Gratitude.....................................................................23Help!!!.......................................................................24Just a Taste..................................................................25'One Red Rose' (Special guest addition written by: Lucci).....................26Silence.......................................................................27Mr & Mrs Smith................................................................28The Sound of Your Voice.......................................................29Wake UP.......................................................................30Freestyle.....................................................................31Missing you...................................................................32Testimony.....................................................................33Lost..........................................................................34In You........................................................................35Praise........................................................................36The Great Escape..............................................................37What I Feel...................................................................38Separate Ways.................................................................39This Is Only a Test...........................................................40Get High......................................................................42Blind I.......................................................................43I'm Tired (Collaboration with Lucci).........................................44Alright.......................................................................46Domination....................................................................47My Hero.......................................................................48Closing Prayer................................................................49

Chapter One

The littlest nigga on the block, the one with the 18-inch shotty ... click, click, bang, there goes another body.

The head of the table said do what needs to be done. There's no playing in this game, either stay or run ... get out while you can....if you don't your trapped my man.

Not looked at cause I'm so short, the quiet one, my brother's secret weapon.... that's why I never got caught.

No trust in this game ... I protected the man & his name but your best friend could turn to be your worst enemy. No time to have feelings or guilt for what I've done ... that kind of shit will get you taken son.

Lord I never looked to you except when the time was wrong, but still ... with all that you kept me from harm. I believed in you but had no faith ... my head & heart were below you living in darkness ... and my demons?.. had no face.

Oh Shit, My brother what? Shot in the head? His intelligence gone? Tried to handle business with his hands ... nigga wasn't hearing it.. Bang, Bang. There goes my man!!! Shit I had it ... no more I need out, Remember blood in.. never out.

Things have changed.. word got out ... shorty's starting to calm, those friends I told you about.... yeah ... now they mean me harm!!!

Damn what now? ... I got a son on the way? ... With all this shit I'm going to be a dad? ... I have to get out, that's it I'm done ... take that paper I made take the family & run.

Now I have a family have to keep them safe, I ran but couldn't run far ... shit they found us, take em' out. Shorty w/ the shotty is now in a different game;.... family man is his new name. Damn I made it; I'm out, far from harm.... Take the time morn my brother's death, stop look around, and take breath.

What now?..... New time new fight, I thought my friends were my greatest enemy.... I was wrong.... it was my wife.... damn baby we couldn't make it work, that's ok I have my son & that's all life's worth.

Damn!!!... Trust, love, faith, emotion, all locked in a box shit my head hurts, I feel like it's gonna burst.

Everyone looks & no one sees I'm not who they think I am one more secret for me to keep.

I have issues from time to time, damn!! ... I have to walk away; I could take care of it in a drop of a dime.... but shorty with the shotty is gone, he died.

Lord ... you have given me peace, kept me safe this far at least. I now have faith & I understand of what it takes, to be the man you want me to be ... from this day forward it's you.. my son ... & me!!!!

IF

Two letters can control a destiny ... determine a person's actions Two letters can control your head & heart, IF you let it can tear you apart ...

IF this one lived, IF that one died ... would control.. IF you laughed or cried.

IF I was a better husband..better father ... better son ... better person ... even a better man.... IF I could, would I change ... who I am.

IF you haven't lived, you haven't learned ... & that age-old question..... IF I ruled the world????

IF they would look at us for who we are ... not the color of our skin.... IF brothers would stop destroying themselves from within.

IF you could only see we were meant to be ... just how much I love you ... & how much you mean to me.....

IF I wished upon a star ... they would be in your eyes.... I would take your hand and stand by your side ..I promise I'd keep you safe and that's the way it would be......IF ... you loved me.

IF you had to choose ... left or right ... what would you do???

IF you had the courage, the strength, the wisdom, the power.. would you help those that need you? ... would you be good or evil?????...