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Melanie Rae Thon is the author of the novels Meteors in August and Iona Moon and the story collections First, Body and Girls in the Grass. Her work has appeared in Paris Review, Story, Granta, and Best American Short Stories. She has received grants from the National Endowment for the Arts and the Mrs. Giles Whiting Foundation. Originally from Montana, she now divides her time between the Pacific Northwest and Salt Lake City, where she teaches at the University of Utah.

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Sweet Hearts

By Melanie Rae Thon

Washington Square Press

Copyright © 2002 Melanie Rae Thon
All right reserved.
ISBN: 0743436792
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G h o s t B r o t h e r

I am the daughter of a drowned woman.
I have stories to tell but do not speak.
Who will trust me?

When I"m afraid of what I see, I pretend it"s a play. The dead will
rise for applause. We"ll all go home. I promise.

First there"s the girl, Cecile Vaughn, ten years old.
She stands barefoot in the muddy yard.
Montana in March, the earth just thawed.

Why is she the only one to know Flint"s home?

Ghost brother, she smells him in her stepfather Dexter"s truck —wet
fur, rags, blood —something the dog might dig up.

These are my sister"s children.

The missing boy brings bad weather and bad luck. Rain turns to sleet,
then snow; his mother Frances singes her hair; Dexter passes out by the
porch and wakes five hours later, left leg so numb and cold he thinks
he"s paralyzed himself.

Chained to a tree, the dog howls and howls.

Flint leaves his mark on Cecile"s bedroom window, smears on the pane —
fingers, nose, open mouth —a map of his body on the glass shroud. From
inside, Cecile measures him against herself.

No ladder, no trellis —how did he climb to the second floor?

At dawn, bare trees burst with squawking crows.

Dexter loads his .22, hates the birds, wants some damn peace in his own
house.
But crows watch us through our windows, see us loading guns and setting
traps, lacing bait with poison. Any farmer knows this. You have to be
smarter than a crow to kill one.
Dexter Bell is no farmer. He owns a tow truck and a snowplow, lives by
other people"s troubles.
By the time he gets outside, the crows have vanished.

Dusk. Clouds break. Wind rocks the pines and pink sky glows between
branches. In the woods, coyotes cry while hundreds of boys try to slip
their own shadows, all of them hungry and lost, like Cecile"s brother.
Under the porch Cecile finds the rolled-up rug where one boy has been
sleeping. She leaves him a jar of milk and a box of chocolate raisins.

All week, that rain.
The yard becomes a shallow lake and keeps spreading. Beneath the porch,
the ground turns spongy.
Even the invisible boy can"t sleep. He sinks. Cold mud seeps inside his
scrap of carpet.

If the weather had been warm and dry, would he have stayed outside
forever?
The little girl forgets to ask him.

The eleventh day, early morning.
A shivering child taps lightly at the kitchen window.
Dexter grabs his rifle, opens the back door, blocks the entry with his
body.
But the boy is quick.
Fast as breath, he"s in the house.
He"s with them.

His mother giggles, inching backward. He"s small for his age, but
harder than Frances remembers. Dark-skinned or only dirty? There they
are again, two brothers in a field, fingers sticky from cotton candy.
They follow Flint everywhere. Their shadows can"t be cut and peeled;
one of them must be his father. He"s grown from child to little man,
skinny in that way that shows every vein and tendon. He could be either
one of those boys from long ago. One summer night Frances Zimmer
ditched her deaf sister and twirled in a mad teacup. The Kotecki
brothers paid for all her rides at the carnival. Ponies skewered on
poles rose and fell while the carousel played its bright tune over and
over. Those boys left fingerprints and the smell of sugar on her thighs
and throat and stomach.
Flint, she says; and Dexter says, No wonder. He means his bad luck, the
numb leg, snow that melted too fast for him to plow it. He says, Feed
him, give him twenty bucks — if he"s gone when I get back, I"ll pretend
I never saw him.
Outside, Dexter fires three shots at empty branches, then unchains
Dixie to take her with him. Dixie: half mutt, half boxer, sixty-two
pounds and dumb as a rock but absolutely faithful. My girl, that"s what
Dexter calls her.

Cecile crouches in the hallway. When her brother was a ghost, she liked
him better. Now he"s flesh and mud. Just like Dexter. And the two men
before Dexter. Just like Grandpa. And Cecile"s father, who always
smelled of blood and was blood-spattered. A butcher, he couldn"t help
it, but all the same, that"s why Frances left him. The blood, she said,
I couldn"t stand it. Caleb Vaughn wanted his young wife to work in the
shop beside him. But no, she"d rather go back to her own father, Lowell
Zimmer, live cramped in one of his motel rooms with Cecile and Flint;
she"d rather scrub floors and scour toilets than stay with Caleb.
Did Cecile"s father beg? The child can"t remember.
And Cecile doesn"t remember Daddy"s hand under her back, Daddy teaching
her to float in the bathtub, Daddy singing hush, little baby in her
dark bedroom.
All this she forgets on purpose. She remembers instead his stained
apron, the marks of his hands where he"d wiped them, all the good
reasons Mother had to leave him.
Cecile can visit her father any day she chooses. Can ride her bike to
town, a gravel road Creston to Kalispell, nine miles. Cecile Vaughn can
walk past Caleb"s shop and see Daddy through the window. Sometimes she
does this when she"s supposed to be at school. When the man looks up,
does he know her? She watches Caleb"s new wife hack through bone with a
cleaver. This wife doesn"t mind slabs of beef hanging in a cold locker.
They have three daughters, plump girls, soon to be good workers. Not
like Cecile, Caleb"s first mistake, skittery child born of a delicate
mother. Look at her wrists, Caleb. If his mother had been alive when
he"d made his choice, she would have warned him.

Free or runaway? Frances doesn"t need to ask Flint this question.
Superintendent Beckett phoned last week. Most of them come home, he
said. When he does, you call us.
He"s hitched six hundred and twelve miles across Montana, a jagged
route to find them. He keeps the map in his head, can name every town
where he wasn"t arrested: Rosebud, Sumatra, Slayton —the beginning of
his journey. He"s slept in barns and unlocked cars. Wolf Creek,
Choteau. Once he walked all night to keep from freezing.
Frances says, You must be hungry.
She fries eggs and pork chops, gives him toast and jam, then coffee. He
tries to eat it all, but can"t —swallowing is work; his stomach"s
shrunken. He smokes. That"s easy. Frances lights her own cigarette from
the flame of the gas stove, and he says, You shouldn"t do that. He
knows. The day her hair caught fire, he was a crow yammering at the
window. He beat his wings against the pane, but couldn"t help her. She
spun and flailed. Mother, burning. That night he turned all boy again,
arms and legs, no wings to lift him. He climbed the maple high enough
to see his mother naked in her bedroom. He watched her lips move; he
read her body. So he knows this too: she"s pregnant, breasts and belly
rounded, hipbones fading, not that far along really, but too late to
end it. Dexter"s forbidden her to drink or smoke, has named his boy
Jake, Jacob, a good name, from the Bible. His dead father"s name, and...