The Falling Nun: And Other Stories - Softcover

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Pamela Rafael Berkman is the author of Her Infinite Variety: Stories of Shakespeare and the Women He Loved and The Falling Nun. Her short story “Duty” from Her Infinite Variety appears in Houghton Mifflin Harcourt’s leading national ELA curriculum, Collections, and the title story from The Falling Nun was nominated for a Pushcart Prize. Pam is an acquiring editor at North Atlantic Books and has worked in the publishing industry for over twenty years. She lives in the San Francisco Bay Area with her family.

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When Liberty walks into Ed Hardy's Tattoo City, she is already not as she was when she came into this world. She drips with jewels the way a tropical bird drips with colored feathers. She is dotted all over with little golden rings. It is as if she is covered inside with a fine spiderweb of lacy wires, and the precious gems and bright metal where the web is anchored peek out here and there to decorate her. There is a diamond nose ring, a delicate circlet through her belly button, amethyst and garnet studs in the tender tabs of flesh inside her ears. Her body is embroidered. She is crewelwork, filigree.

But it is not enough. The piercings are beautiful, but they are over too soon. They are too easy, too common; they don't leave enough of a mark. They don't do what she needs them to do. They don't say what she needs them to say. She is not entirely sure even what that is.

Bzzt, bzzt, bzzt, she hears. Bzzt, bzzt, bzzt. One of the two tattoo artists is finishing up a job. In an open cubicle, a very young man lies on a padded table with his pant leg rolled up. He is covered knee to ankle with a great, gaping trompe l'oeil wound. Crushed bones, tattered muscle, tendons, sinews, blood, and machinery show up on his flesh as though he has been skinned. The artist is rubbing more pinkish color onto a strip of muscle with a tattoo gun that looks like a tiny pistol. The young man is not squirming. Liberty wonders if it will hurt so little when her turn comes. Maybe by now he is used to it. He must have been on the table for hours receiving that monstrous tattoo, the outline first, then the color added, creeping into the picture like a flame along the edge of a newspaper.

"Just a minute," says the guy at the desk, who Liberty now realizes is not a second artist but only the helper. Under his T-shirt his arms are solidly red, blue, and green, the decoration stopping abruptly at his wrists, tattoo sleeves.

"That must hurt," Liberty says, jerking her head toward the guy on the table.

"He was in an accident last year. He's got all this metal in his leg."

"Yeah?"

"It's like he wants the outside to show the way his leg is on the inside. To honor it."

"Cool."

"So what can I do for you?"

Liberty unfolds the elaborate antique valentine. The helper calls over the tattooist. The guy with the metal in his leg just lies there.

"I wanted it a little smaller," Liberty says.

The artist shrugs. His name is Igor and he is from Denmark. It says so on a little flyer on the wall with the other brochures and qualifications of all the artists who work at Ed Hardy's Tattoo City.

Igor is holding up his rubber-gloved hands like a surgeon. He wears a Greenpeace T-shirt and his arms are covered with pictures of beautiful dark-haired women in swirling ocean waves. Would I see myself in there, Liberty wonders, gazing at his skin, wondering if a face like her own is there among the tides and eddies, if the inky water circles around hips like hers there on his biceps, and is then surprised that she has had the thought.

"You would lose a lot of detail," he says. He speaks formally, almost without contractions, in his Danish accent. "Honestly, I would not cut it down much. I like it very much. It is from where?"

"Just a street fair." Liberty is flustered with the flattery of the tattoo artist approving her choice. "Around last Valentine's Day, down by Saint Columbus's. This guy had a whole card table of them."

Igor tells her, "I love old prints and papers."

"Do people bring in a lot of them, to get copied?"

"People bring in everything."

Still holding his hands up, Igor watches while the helper at the front desk turns over the time-softened card. It is faintly perfumed, even now.

"Where?" Igor asks.

"I was thinking right here." She runs her fingers over the papery skin between wrist and elbow on the inside of her right forearm. "Will it hurt there?"

"It will sting anywhere you get it." He studies the lines, the cherubs, the roses, the curlicues. There is a romantic verse beneath the illustration. "You want that, also?" he asks, pointing, and she nods. "Wearing your heart on your sleeve, huh?" He grins.

"I guess."

He heads back to the padded table. "I can begin in one half hour," he calls over his shoulder, not to Liberty but to the guy at the desk. Bzzt, bzzt, bzzt.

"You can sit down," the guy says.

"I really might want it a little smaller," she says again. She has envisioned a floral, feminine accent to her golden skin and glistening jewels, not a big, full-blown butchy tattoo.

"No, you don't want to do that." It's the guy lying on the table speaking, and Liberty notices that his teeth are clenched and his voice is strained. He hurts after all. "Little tattoos just look stupid. You're going through all this, you know, pain, and you don't want to end up with just a colored freckle."

"Well, I didn't mean like a freckle," Liberty calls over to him.

He goes on talking. "It's important. They spread. They're always gonna spread. They get fuzzy. Get it as big as you can. They spread inside of you, too. They become more and more part of you."

Igor continues with his work, oblivious. Bzzt.

"First one?" the tattooee says.

"Oh, yeah." Now that he is talking to her, she feels it is okay to look at him more undisguisedly. His arms and shoulders are covered, not like the guy's at the desk, not like sleeves, but with the classic pictures, the topless hula dancers and the hearts with banners. The face of an old-fashioned nurse with a red cross on her cap peaks out from a blooming rose. The blue and green shades on the Polynesian scenes are already dim and faded. He is so young, Liberty thinks, even a little younger than she is; these tattoos are almost from childhood. Illegal.

She can think of nothing else to say to him, so she asks Igor, "Should I go and get a drink? Tequila or something?"

"It won't help. It will only make you bleed more."

It will only make her bleed more. She sighs.

The guy at the desk says, apparently by way of soothing her, "He's the best. He's teaching me."

She turns to look at him. "Really?"

"Yeah. I'm his apprentice. I've already done twelve tattoos."

"On who?"

"My first was on my brother."

"What was it?"

"A winged serpent. Red and orange. Fiery."

She's tensing up. For her piercings they could always see her right away. She keeps talking.

"Do you like it?"

"Oh, yeah. It's so much better than the bank. I work at Bank of America. Days. 'Cause they don't pay me to work here, it's in exchange for my training."

"What do you do? At the bank?"

"Dunning calls." He makes a face. "I fucking hate it."

"But you like the tattooing?"

"Oh, yeah."

"Really? What makes you like it so much?"

He pauses but then decides to answer her. "Everyone's so grateful, you know? They look in the mirror when they're done, and you can tell they're thinking, 'Right on, man, I did it.' They just keep telling you thanks and saying how beautiful it is."

He's flushed, his eyes open wide. "Well, you know," he finishes. He looks away to fumble with some useless paperwork on the desk and Liberty notices how close shorn his dark hair is, how soft it looks.

"What made you want one?" asks the young man from the table.

Liberty turns her head to look at him. She had forgotten about him.

"I don't know," she says, and she doesn't. She knows that part of why she likes the piercings is that they belie that her skin is undamaged and whole, that she herself is unpunctured. She knows that everyone is punctured. She thinks the piercings are sexy, and she hopes the tattoo will be, too.

Liberty is quite beautiful. She is tall and dark and warm looking, with heavy brows and heavy hair. All her baubles look right on her, they fit her, as though she...