Darling Rose Gold - Softcover

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Stephanie Wrobel grew up in Chicago but has been living in the UK for the last three years with her husband and dog, Moose Barkwinkle. She has an MFA from Emerson College and has had short fiction published in Bellevue Literary Review. Before turning to fiction, she worked as a creative copywriter at various advertising agencies.

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Patty

Day of release

My daughter didn't have to testify against me. She chose to.

It's Rose Gold's fault I went to prison, but she's not the only one to blame. If we're pointing fingers, mine are aimed at the prosecutor and his overactive imagination, the gullible jury, and the bloodthirsty reporters. They all clamored for justice.

What they wanted was a story.

(Get out your popcorn and Buncha Crunch, because boy, did they write one.)

Once upon a time, they said, a wicked mother gave birth to a daughter. The daughter appeared to be very sick and had all sorts of things wrong with her. She had a feeding tube, her hair fell out in clumps, and she was so weak, she needed a wheelchair to get around. For eighteen years, no doctor could figure out what was wrong with her.

Then along came two police officers to save the daughter. Lo and behold, the girl was perfectly healthy-the evil mother was the sick one. The prosecutor told everyone the mother had been poisoning her daughter for years. It was the mother's fault the girl couldn't stop vomiting, that she suffered from malnutrition. Aggravated child abuse, he called it. The mother had to be punished.

After she was arrested, the press swooped in like vultures, eager to capitalize on a family being ripped apart. Their headlines screamed for the blood of "Poisonous Patty," a fiftysomething master of manipulation. All the mother's friends fell for the lies. High horses were marched all over the land; every lawyer, cop, and neighbor was sure they were the girl's savior. They put the mother in prison and threw away the key. Justice was served, and most of them lived happily ever after. The end.

But where were the lawyers while the mother was scrubbing the girl's vomit out of the carpet for the thousandth time? Where were the cops while the mother pored over medical textbooks every night? Where were the neighbors when the little girl cried out for her mother before sunrise?

Riddle me this: if I spent almost two decades abusing my daughter, why did she offer to pick me up today?

Connolly approaches my cell at noon sharp, as promised. ÒYou ready, Watts?Ó

I scramble off my Pop-Tart of a bed and pull my scratchy khaki uniform taut. "Yes, sir."

I have become a woman who chirps.

The potbellied warden pulls out a large ring of keys and whistles as he slides open my door. I am Connolly's favorite inmate.

I pause at my cellie's bed, not wanting to make a scene. But Alicia is already sitting against the wall, hugging her knees. She raises her eyes to mine and bursts into tears, looking much younger than twenty.

"Shh, shh." I bend down and wrap the girl in my arms. I try to sneak a peek at her bandaged wrists, but she catches me. "Keep applying the ointment and changing those dressings. No infections," I say, wiggling my eyebrows at her.

Alicia smiles, tears staining her face. She hiccups. "Yes, Nurse Watts."

I try not to preen. I was a certified nursing assistant for twelve years.

"Good girl. D'az is going to walk the track with you today. Thirty minutes. Doctor's orders." I smile back, petting Alicia's hair. Her hiccups have stopped.

"You'll write me?"

I nod. "And you can call me whenever." Squeezing her hand, I stand again and head toward Connolly, who has been waiting patiently. I pause at the threshold and look back at Alicia, making a mental note to send her a letter when I get home. "One hour at a time."

Alicia waves shyly. "Good luck out there."

Connolly and I walk toward I&R. My fellow inmates call out their farewells.

"Keep in touch, you hear?"

"We'll miss you, Mama."

"Stay outta trouble, Skeeto." (Short for "Mosquito," a nickname given as an insult but taken as a compliment. Mosquitoes never give up.)

I give them my best Queen Elizabeth wave but refrain from blowing kisses. Best to take this seriously. Connolly and I keep walking.

In the hallway Stevens nearly plows me over. She bears an uncanny resemblance to a bulldog-squat and stout, flapping jowls, known to drool on occasion. She grunts at me. "Good riddance."

Stevens was in charge until I got here. Never a proponent of the flies-and-honey approach, she is vinegar through and through. But brute force and scare tactics only get you so far, and they get you nowhere with a woman of my size. Usurping her was easy. I don't blame her for hating me.

I wave my fingers at her coquettishly. "Have a glorious life, Stevens."

"Don't poison any more little girls," she growls.

Strangling her isn't an option, so I kill her with kindness instead. I smile, the epitome of serenity, and follow Connolly.

The intake & release center is unremarkable: a long hallway with concrete floors, too-white walls, and holding rooms with thick glass windows. At the end of the hallway is a small office area with desks, computers, and scanners. It could be an accounting firm, if all the accountants wore badges and guns.

At the reception desk, the clerk's chair is turned toward the radio. A news program plays. After a short break, the reporter says, we have the story of a baby boy gone missing in Indiana. That's next on WXAM. I haven't watched, listened to, or read the news since my trial. The press destroyed my good name. Because of them, my daughter didn't speak to me for four years.

I glare at the radio. The chair swivels toward me, and I realize I know the clerk sitting in it. I privately refer to the bald and brawny man as Mr. Clean. I met him five years ago. He flirted with me all day, asking what perfume I was wearing while I batted him away. I'd feigned breeziness, but internally I was seesawing between fury at the injustice of my verdict and fear of the next five years. I hadn't seen him again until now.

"Patty Watts?" he says, turning off the radio.

I nod.

"I remember you." He smiles.

Mr. Clean pulls a form from his desk drawer, then disappears into the storage room. After a few minutes, he comes back with a small cardboard box. He hands me a piece of paper. "I need you to look through the inventory list and sign at the bottom to confirm you're leaving with everything you brought here."

I open the box and glance through it before scribbling my signature.

"You can change back into your street clothes now," Mr. Clean says, gesturing to the bathroom and winking at me when Connolly isn't looking. I tip my head and shuffle away, clutching the cardboard box.

In a stall, I rip off the jacket with DEPT. OF CORRECTIONS emblazoned across its back and dig into the box. After five years of prison food, my favorite pair of jeans, with the forgiving elastic in the waistband, is a little loose. I put on my Garfield T-shirt and a red sweatshirt embroidered with the initials of my community college, GCC. My old socks are stiff with sweat, but they're still better than the rough wool pairs I've been wearing. I pull on my white gym shoes and notice a final item at the bottom of the box. I pick up the heart-shaped locket and think about putting it in my pocket, but instead clasp it around my neck. Better for her to see me wearing her childhood gift.

I leave the bathroom and hand the empty box back to Mr. Clean.

"You take care...