The Mirror of Merlin (Lost Years of Merlin, Band 4) - Softcover

CHAPTER ONE
SHADOWS

I strained, throwing all my strength into the task, but my shadow refused to move.

Again I tried. Still, the stubborn shadow would not budge. Closing my eyes-a meaningless gesture, since they couldn't see anyway, having been replaced by my second sight over three years ago-I tried my best to concentrate. To perceive nothing but my shadow. That was not easy, on a bright summer day like this, though it still seemed easier than my task.

All right, then. Clearing my mind, I pushed aside the sound of rustling grasses on this alpine meadow, and of splattering streamwater nearby. No smells of springmint, or lavender, or pepperwort-almost strong enough to make me sneeze. No boulder, roughened by yellow lichens, resting beneath me; no mountains of Varigal, streaked with snow even in summer, rising above me. No wondering about whether I might encounter my old friend, the giant Shim, in these hills so near his home. And, most difficult of all, no drifting into thoughts about Hallia.

Just my shadow.

Starting from the bottom, I traced the shadow's outline on the grass. There were my boots, leather straps dangling, planted firmly on top of the boulder. Then my legs, hips, and chest, looking less scrawny than usual because of my billowing tunic. Protruding from one side, my leather satchel-and from the other, my sword. Next, my arms, bent with hands resting on hips. And my head, turned sideways just enough to show the tip of my nose, which, much to my consternation, had started to hook downward in recent months. Already more beak than nose, it reminded me of the hawk who had inspired my name. Then, of course, came my hair: even blacker than my shadow. And, I grumbled to myself, just as unruly.

Move, I commanded silently, all the while keeping my own body motionless.

No response.

Lift yourself, I intoned, focusing all my thoughts on the shadow's right arm.

Still no response.

I released a growl. Already I had wasted the entire morning trying to coax it to move independently. So what if shadow-working was a skill reserved only for the eldest wizards-true mages? I never was much good at waiting.

I drew a long, slow breath. Lift. Lift, I say.

For a long moment, I stared, exasperated, at the dark form. Then . . . something started to change. Slowly, very slowly, the shadow's outline started to quiver. The edges of its shoulders grew blurry, while its arms quaked so violently they seemed to swell in size.

Better. Much better. I forced myself not to move, not even to brush away the bothersome drops of perspiration rolling down my temples. Now, right arm. Lift yourself.

With a sharp jerk, the shadow's arm straightened. And lifted-all the way above the head. Though I held my own body fixed, a thrill raced through me-a mixture of excitement, and discovery, and pride in my growing powers. At last, I had done it! Worked my own shadow! I could hardly wait to show Hallia.

Though I felt as if I could fly off the boulder, I kept myself still. Only my widening grin betrayed my feelings. Returning my attention to the shadow, its arm still raised, I savored my success. To think that I, barely fifteen years of age, could move my shadow's-

Left arm? My whole chest constricted. It should have moved the right, not the left! With a roar, I stomped my boots and waved my own arms angrily. The shadow, as if in spite, did the same back at me.

"You foolish shadow! I'll teach you some obedience!"

"And when will that be?" asked a resonant voice behind me.

I spun around to face Hallia. Stepping as lightly as a doe, she seemed more supple than the summer grass. Yet I knew that, even in her young woman's form, she was ever alert to any possible danger-ready to run like the deer she could become in an instant. As the sunlight glinted on her auburn braid, her immense brown eyes watched me with humor.

"Obedience, if I recall, isn't one of your strong points."

"Not me, my shadow!"

Her eyes sparkled mischievously. "Where leaps the stag, so leaps his shadow."

"But-but I . . ." My cheeks grew hotter as I stammered. "Why do you have to appear right now? Just when I've botched everything?"

She stroked her long chin. "If I didn't know better, I might think you had been hoping to impress me."

"Not at all." I clenched my fists, then shook them at my shadow. Seeing it wave its own fists back at me only made me angrier. "Fool shadow! I just want to make it do what it should."

Hallia bent to study a sprig of lupine, as deep purple as her robe. "And I just want to keep you a little humble." She sniffed the tower of petals. "That's usually Rhia's responsibility, but since she's off learning the speech of the canyon eagles-"

"With my horse to carry her," I grumbled, trying to stretch my stiff shoulders.

"True enough." She glanced up and smiled, more with her eyes than with her lips. "She can't, after all, run like a deer."

Something about her words, her tone, her smile, made my anger vanish like mist in the morning sun. Even my shoulders seemed to relax. How, I couldn't begin to explain. Yet all at once, I recalled the secrets she had shown me of transforming myself into a deer, as well as the joys of running beside her-with hooves instead of feet, four legs instead of two; with keen sight, and keener smell; with the ability to hear not just through my ears, but through my very bones.

"It's . . . well, it's-ahhh . . . ," I stammered. "Nice, I suppose. To be here. With you, I mean. Just-well, just you."

Her doelike eyes, suddenly shy, turned aside.

Emboldened, I climbed down from the rock. "Even in these days, these weeks, we've been traveling together, we haven't had much time alone." Tentatively, I reached for her hand. "If it hasn't been one of your deer people, or some old friend, it's been-"

She jerked her hand away. "So you haven't liked what I've shown you?"

"No. I mean yes. That's . . . oh, that's not what I'm saying! You know how much I've loved being here-seeing your people's Summer Lands: those high meadows, the birthing hollow, all the hidden trails through the trees. It's just that, well, the best part has been . . ."

As my voice faltered, she cocked her head. "Yes?"

I glanced her way, meeting her gaze for barely an instant. But it was enough to make me forget what I had wanted to say.

"Yes?" she coaxed. "Tell me, young hawk."

"It's, well, been . . . Fumblefeathers, I don't know!" My brow furrowed. "Sometimes I envy old CairprT, tossing off poems whenever he likes."

She half grinned. "These days, it's mostly love poems to your mother."

More flustered than ever, I exclaimed, "That's not what I meant!" Then, seeing her face fall, I realized my gaffe. "I mean . . . when I said that, what I meant was-not, well, not what I meant to say."

She merely shook her head.

Again, I stretched my hand toward her. "Please, Hallia. Don't judge me by my words."

"Hmfff," she grunted. "Then how should I judge you?"

"By something else."

"Like what?"

A sudden inspiration seized me. I grasped her hand, pulling her across the grass. Together we ran, our feet pounding in unison. As we neared the edge of the stream, our backs lowered, our necks lengthened, our arms stretched down to the ground. The bright green reeds by the water's edge, glistening with dew, bent before us. In one motion, one body it seemed, we sprang into the air, flowing as smoothly as the stream below us.

We landed on the opposite bank, fully transformed into deer. Swinging about, I reared back on my haunches and drew a deep breath, filling my nostrils with the rich aromas of the meadow-and the full-hearted freedom of a stag. Hallia's foreleg brushed against my own; I replied with a stroke of an antler along her graceful neck. An instant later we were bounding together through the grass, prancing with hooves high, listening to the whispering...